My hangover is finally starting to go away. I spent the day just lying around the house. After a night like that, it’s understandable I wasn’t in the mood to leave my room. Even getting out of bed was a challenge. I still think of Lisa constantly. I talk to my friends all the time but I don’t think they fully understand how I felt for her. Their advice for me is to stop thinking about her and just move on. I can’t. If it was that simple I would have done it weeks ago. Im so confused. I hate her but at the same time I cannot get her out of my mind.
Mike called me today to check up on how I was feeling. He told me last night was the worst he had ever seen me. Not surprising since it was the first time I had ever blacked out from alcohol. He also mentioned Katlyn, the girl at the party, really thought I was cute. She told him to give me her number and to make sure I called. I am not sure if I am ready though. Maybe this is some poor attempt by Mike to get me over “the bitch”. Whatever it may be, it made my day seem a little brighter, but I would still say it amounts to shit.
Matt you sound like a nice young man with a heavy and hurting heart. Don’t sit around and simmer. One day you will look back and find that the pot that was simmering is now dry or worse burnt. Write a letter to the girl you can’t forget. You don’t have to mail it just write it. Be truthful. Who, what, when, where and maybe you can figure out the why and start to heal. If I sound like a mom I am. I don’t like to know that anybody is out there huring as much as you seem to be. There are other things to try if the letter idea doesn’t appeal to you. I care. A Mom
happened to fall in here and read your stuff. i’ve been there. i know exactly what you’re talking about. nobody can help you man. i got out of it when i decided to try lsd. then the vicious circle of rejected feelings went away and i got myself plenty of new interests. not advising anything, just sharing the experience. be small man, your pain comes from the fact that you feel so much important in his universe. peace.
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Why are people leaving messages in here as though he is still alive? Does anyone not realize that he has passed away? Before you start commenting on someone’s journal, maybe you should read the faq’s.