Today, after my morning classes, I had lunch with Katlyn again. Having lunch together has become routine now. While eating, we spoke about how boring our professor is. I would think that a class like psychology would be interesting, but some how my professor still manages to make me want to kill myself.
Thank God for Katlyn. I told her that if not for her, I would have probably dropped the class. She is the only thing that actually gives me incentive to show up. Does not really make a difference how boring he is, though. With all the talking we do during class, I never get one thing out of the lessons anyway.
It is weird. I feel different about Katlyn. I can’t put my finger on it, but she really has some kind of effect on me. It is nothing like “the bitch.” I would have done anything to make “the bitch” happy. I felt as if it was my job or duty, but with Katlyn it is different. It’s as if I do not even have to try. Just being around her is enough to make her happy. We are definitely starting to get more serious. There isn’t a day that goes by where we do not speak to each other, and it is starting to show that we really care for one another.
This brings me to a huge dilemma now though. I mean, I have this perfect girl who is interesting as well as attractive. We both get along great and I am crazy about her. I still do not know how to take the next step with her. I can not manage to bring it up. I feel too old to just ask her out. It isn’t like I am in high school. I mean, we are kind of already seeing each other, but how do I know when we are something more. Christ, you would think I would have learned something by now about relationships, but I am still as blind as a bat.
Communication is best
. Just talk. I didn’t know where my boyfriend and I stood until I told him that I wanted more from him. Like… go out on a real date or something. So, we did. Any way… talking is best… 
man love is the most powerful thing in the world. let it take you away but dont fly too high or youll fall.
Man, this is love…you are in love. If she is mostly with you, she is in love too….perhaps as confused as you are. Though you may be older to her, you must be having the same maturity like her (girls mature faster, you see).
Take her to a place where she is comfortable, and speak your mind, carefully. I am sure something positive will happen. Even if she just walks away or gets angry or tell a NO, don’t force your decision on her. Just be patient. Don’t sulk and turn to drinking/ smoking as they signify your weekness of character. Bear with time, be still her friend, and the outcome will surely be positive.
So you see, the bitter pill (professor’s class) has given a new dimension to your life. Great going. Live life and love life.
Bye
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