Over the past few days, I have been really upset. The idea of my aunt dying is really taking a toll on my daily life. Not that I want anything to happen to someone else, but my aunt happens to be my favorite relative. What upsets me even more is what my father said the other day. The man cannot come to grips with reality. Everything just somehow always relates to God. His sister is dying and he can still manage to say it is the will of God. Just writing this down almost brings me to tears. I am really confused.
I am not even mad anymore. I am just tired. Tired of everything. Luckily, I have Katlyn. She has been reassuring. Yesterday, it was so beautiful out when we were walking to class. It was impossible to miss all the colorful leaves on the ground. Katlyn said she loved the fall, it is her favorite season. I forced a laugh and she noticed immediately. She grabbed my hand, stopping me dead in my tracks. She stepped in front of me, grasped my other hand, and looked into my eyes. She told me that she understood what I was going through and that if there was anything I needed, she’ll always be there for me.
She got on her toes and gave me a soft kiss on my lips and wrapped her arms around me. We just stood in the middle of campus. holding each other. It felt like time stood still. It got me thinking that not everything in my life was horrible, I did find something special.
That is so sad…
I’m so sorry.
i know its very late to post this reply but i was noticing the date and you posted this the day before my dad died of cancer. Its strange knowing how 2 people were feeling the same thing around the same point in time
my condelences
You know, I think it’s absolutely beautiful, the thing you’re doing for Matt that is. You’ve probably heard this all too many times before, but it’s always nice to have the support. I know it must be. Atleast it should be. You’re doing something that he probably would’ve appreciated a lot. You should know that he readers appreciate it though, tremendously. I added your LJ for Matt. I really want to read the updates. Keep up the good work! Thank you, John.
Thank you for sharing your memories. I like your writing style. It is easy to relate to it.
I thought this entry was really beautiful.
To the person above this post, they are not his memories. People on this site really to find out what it’s about.
I agree with Ina. This is a beautiful thing you’re doing for your friend.
Please update when you can.